My first pregnancy BUMPdate.

7 Weeks.
I'm currently 7 whole weeks pregnant. Half way through my first trimester.
As most of you know, I lost my last angel at 6 weeks (though I hadn't found out until I was 9, but thats a story for a different day.)  So passing the 7 week mark is the first milestone in my pregnancy.
I guess I can cross that off my list. Pass 7 weeks.

But, Not only has this pregnancy come with a lot of symptoms, and excitement, (Thats all coming shortly). Attached also is fear, anxiety, stress & worry. Everytime I wake up in the morning I close my eyes and pray my child is still growing, and that I wont wake up to a bloodshow. Everytime I have to use the washroom, my heart sinks a little before I sit down, fearing my worst nightmare will come true. Everytime I lie down at night, I pray to god that hes going to continue to bless me with my beautiful baby, & keep his/her heartbeating for me. This pregnancy is probably the most tramatic thing i've experienced. Not only have I already lost two of my babies, but I have to fight everyday, to keep myself strong, and just hope that my baby will continue to stay safe & keep developing in my stomach. Its hard, it's emotionally draining, having so much fear & worry built up inside you, yet continuing to be happy. Continuing to move forward everyday and not let the negativity eat away at you. Enjoying every minute of my pregnacy. Because I know if I don't, and the unthinkable happens, and my biggest fear comes true, I won't be able to look back on the time i've had, and cherish the "good" moments in my pregnancy. I won't have those memories to hold on to. So, push the negativity away, (even if it only last's 5 minutes) and put a smile on my face. This is apart of my journey. And even though I don't believe that everything happens for a reason, I do believe that my babies are watching over me in heaven, and they are the reason my baby boy or girl is continuing to stay healthy.

Now, Lets move on to the Bumpdate! 

About Baby Munchkin:     
· Length : 0.05 inch.
· Weight : 0.02 ounce.
· Munchkin is teething! Not exactly, but his/her little teeth buds are forming!
· Has a two-chambered heart, air passages in the lungs, and cerebral hemispheres in the brain.
· Developing an appendix, and pancreas which is kind of cool.

Symptoms:
· Overly frequent urination (not fun)
· Nausea (no puking yet, yay!)
· Breast tenderness (not as bad as last week, but bra's are still my least favorite thing.
· Increased sence of smell!
· Easily annoyed
· SLEEPY.

Cravings: 
· SLEEP (does that count?)
· Subway! (I've had one a day for the past 4 days, opps.)
· Chocolate! Yes.
· Water
· Halls ! (I've gained a cold within the past 2 days, so I can't tell if the cravings from being sick, or being pregnant!)

Upcoming Appointments: 
· Ultrasound Monday at 7:00 pm.
· My doctor returns from Vacation on the 25th, so no more dealing with dumb secretaries.
· Bloodwork (Not an appointment, I basically just go in whenever I want)

Excited for:
· My Ultrasound! (Duh)
· My cold to go away!
· Bumpdate Week #8! ♥

So, I hope you enjoyed my very first bumpdate, and hopefully many more to come aswell!